Myrha's Blog

  FACES  "You just slapped me?!" Did I slap her? I did not even feel my palm meet her skin, I only remember a red haze swallow me and ominous silence.   ''Oh God!! shameless, that is what you are, all of you!'' What is she talking about?   ''You were inside your office with a foolish woman and I am trying to protect us and you slap me!! So this is it? You have been looking for an opportunity to send me away from this house? No? You paid bride price complete oh! Ka'm gwa kwa gi, let me just tell you, unless my father will give it back to you I will not leave!!'' Papa is dead.   ''I will not leave this house for any woman!!!'' She shrieks and  turns away from me, to inspect her face. Her usual flawless skin is red below one cheek; as she slowly turns her head to the mirror in front of her, she begins to whimper.   "I'm..." I begin, her phone cuts me short with a love song; it mocks us. '&#

ANGST     I want to break something, to hit something fragile on a hard wall and listen intently to it splintering. Destroy totally, take action - purposeful or not.   To do something finally, something that is concrete but not complicating things like weakness, just the drunken and happy feeling of doing wrong to intimidate.   I broke mother's favorite glass cup, a mixed sense of achievement moves from my lower belly to my chest and now against my will, my torso bends to gather the pink jagged pieces. Quickly.